This thing

A curse I lay myself with
Trying to fill people with bliss

A person that thought you could be
Turned out to be your closest enemy

You thought you were broken
Yet my eyes tell the stories which are unspoken

I know things need to change
But... No plans can be arranged

Go to God, ask him what to do
Cause he knows what to do with you

You look left then look right
Nothing emerges, nothing takes flight

Then you soon realize
To look inside...

Then out of no where, there she was
Her smile turns your body to fuzz

Her sky blue eyes
They pierce through the sky
The sight of her makes me fly
Makes me feel like I can't die
A face that tells no lies
A person whose spirits will always rise--

A love that no one can see
I kindness that no one can beat

Your so amazing
Impossible word phrasing

Your hugs are always soft and warm
All my feelings unseemingly swarm

Your hand, softer then anything
Take ever chance to keep them holding

An instant smile when I see you
An instant rush of joy is something new

If I had to choose one person for me
I'd chose you to set me free :)

God almighty

Trust in the lord and do great things
Why do some people where this on rings

Pray everyday the heaven above
And peace be with the flying doves

Love your neighbors like yourself
No matter how much wealth

Love all your enemies
And make them friends to see

Always be meek
And maybe it will be Him they seek

Know in your heart no matter what
He loves you, no if's and's or buts

Know and love his soft voice
Know it's your choice

Feel the softness of His shoulder
Yet also as hard as a boulder
And tough as the morning solider--

Have faith that He is with you
Have faith the foot fits the shoe

Know He is there when you can't see Him
Believe the chance of heaven is more then slim

Fear Him at all times
Sounds scary but that's where he will stay

Read a book more holy then any other
Love and cherish it like a newborn to a mother

Cry when he enters your heart
Know that your live just changed from the start

He will never leave you for anything
And will always return you with something
Even nothing..is everything--

Our father who art in heaven
Just love the seven seven seven
-Jason Farrell

Small..Yet vicious

On the outside I'm cute and smiley
Get me mad and I'll be all fiery

On the inside I'm nice and kind
Tick my off and you'll wish it was 'just
Fine'

I give warm hugs
But scream and yell and yell.. That means your holes dug

I'll wear my hair, up in a bun
That's your cue to run:)

Though I'm happy most the time
It's frustrating when people lie

I'm Nice to all my friends
But if you start something..that turns into a: depends

All in all I try my best
An in the end it still concludes as a cute little Deva fest :)

I Am

One doesn't fathom the Thought of strength
One doesn't have that kind of faith

Pull your fists up, focused and ready
Fighting the illusion of the enemy, keep steady

Simple one two puts you in place
Whipped onto a slavehood daze

Vocal and physical punishment everyday
Asking for someone..anything that can act and save

Is it easier to give up. Give in?
Wait till the credits yell 'fin'?

Cause in this world you just don't believe
Doing better is something you just don't perceive

Truth is, nothing really matters if you are who you are
You just be your own star

Light the night sky
Don't wish. Just fly

Don't sit back alone
Be what you are and prove all that you are who you own up to be
And that's free.

Nothing like this

Hand In hand we dance

Eyes like those put me in a trace

Open my eyes to see you

Feelings show through and through

Relaxation at it's finest

I'd do anything for this

Sleeping next to you, it's a dream

Breathing in all that that sets me free

Showing you my heart

Is always the best start

Love, it's beautiful

It's mutual

It's full of you and I

To the day that we die

There's a reason I say I love you

Because for once I know it's true

Nobody will take you from me

Nobody can be what I see

If I could live forever with one person

It would be you for certain

I know all your thoughts and emotions

Cause I've fended off those oceans

Your so special to me, truly

Your everything to me, fully

Marry me tonight

An I'll have you for the rest of my life

This Feeling (inspired by: A million little pieces 'James Frey' )

Soft flutter of sounds around, I surrendered

Smiling, why is that the last thing I remember?

I'm coming to, yes I know

Falling from my high, to the below

Blink once, I know I'm breathing

Blink twice, death I'm seeking

Open my eyes to the bright room

My head, it goes boom boom

I lift my hands to my face

Gooey liquid all over the place

Looking at my hands I see a sea of red

I open my mouth but, no words are said

I get to my knees

And realize it’s hard to breath

All feeling has ceased--

One leg then the other

There are people around but they don’t even bother

My eyes show the need for help

Somehow I deserve to be dealt

With the pain that I have inflicted on myself

So why do I really think they should feel sorry

All I want to be is free

And see the world around me

Maybe through different eyes

See the blue blue skies

I need to kick this God awful habit

  Just full out attack it

You know, they say it would be easy

But it’s not when you’re always busy

Snorting a line

Or forming a perfect rhyme

Of the mouth and the bottle

Start walking and you begin to wobble

You can’t see strait

And you begin to get irate

Tears from your eyes

Wishing you would just fall over… and die

That’s it, I'm done

I’ve had my stupid fun

I'm going to run

From the drugs

Stop being ‘the thug’

Get a new life

And strive

I'm clean

And I'm freed

Getting back into it

I've freed myself to practice arts

To show if my life is shown in marks

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I've learned and I've grown more wise

And I show new formats, ones that I can devise

*

I view the world through new eyes

And love the souls of everyone who lives and dies

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My heart is melted and I can see your face

From here but from place to place

*

I held hands and i skipped about

thinking of you throughout

*

I kissed the lips of only one girl

and the emotions that i felt made me twirl

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I got the glimpse of something special

and got the scorn of something vengeful

*

 I heard the tears of an angel

and found things that were emotional

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The hugs are warm

And true love was born

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We had out fights

Yet through it all i have you to delight

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I love you comes even more of a surprise

When  get you to stare into my eyes

I just laugh

I hate it when people think I'm awesome

When so far I have yet to blossom

I hate when I'm not myself

And I hate when they tell me to be yourslef

I hate when I have to break a heart

Especially when I have no where to start

I hate when they twist my words

Because they seem to attack me in heards

I hate when people dont understand me

Like they think I'm as happy as can be

I hate when people make me cry

Make me feel like I wanna die

I hate when they blame it on me

If they want to know look in a mirror and see

I hate when people want me to change

Want me to make times to arrange

I hate when people shoot me down

Make jokes as if they were clowns

I hate when people hate me

Because truly they dont know who I can be

I hate when people think I'm fake

it goes through my heart with a stake

I hate when I put a fake smile on

wondering truly where it belongs

I hate it when I do stupid things

like as if I'm walking on a wire made of strings

Sometimes I laugh at all those situations

Sometimes I cry out with antispations

But I know in my heart that all the hate in the world

Could be solved with just one girl

Don't sit back, Don't stand alone

When you ask questions about all the right answers

You might find criticism from others

The question is could you find it in your heart to fight back

To take the punishment

To not conform in a world with so much hate

To endure the nonstop mental assaults

To lose friends...

To be looked down on by family

Somebody that's normal wouldn't

The problem is that nobody is; in fact, normal

People have limits, they have guidelines

They fold under pressure

They don't take the stand that they really need to,

A "normal" person wouldn't find it in there heart

But what is classified as normal

if everyone is the same

Then does that mean that normal isn't describing a person but rather than an

Act...

Loving someone for unknown reason

Hating someone for irrelevant situations

Praying to a God that you might not believe in

Do these things mean a person is abnormal?

Does that mean people should look down on you

Is a person who asks questions to the right answers considered a

Normality?

Is conformality the actual definition of

Abnormality?

Or is it so misleading that it proves and disproves itself at the same

Time?

Is the answer to the question the evident answer

Is conforming the question; or is it the

Question after the answer

The right answer.

This girl

Deep in the sea of your blue blue eyes

Feeling free from the dreams in the sky

Far in the flow of your red brown hair

Not seeing you as much as i need isn't fair

Feeling of your soft hand in mine
Our feelings for each other form into perfect rhymes

I see how your lips form loving words
So mesmerized by your beauty, there unheard

The volume of thoughts collected of you
Day-dreaming is something i cant get through

I dream of days of greatness
Those days full of happiness

I dream of a day that I'll wake up with you
As you open your eyes you smile at all that i do

I dream of the white picket fence
I want this to be out future tense

I dream of the kids i might have
I pray, but know that they wont go bad

I dream of our countryside home
But best of all I'll have you as my own

A perfect life, a simple life
Shaped carefully by the knife

Sitting all day, thinking of you
Waiting till the time where i say: i love you too

I believe your the person for me
Because you fill me with the feeling of being free

I love you
And to rhyme; I know its true 

Falling

Driving down the lonesome misty road

Where I'm going God only knows

Driving into the shroud of rain

As if falling from my face full of pain

On this lonesome misty ride

Leaving all the past behind

Thought i could meet my angel from above

Thought i could find true love

So as i drive down this broken road

I'm under the pressure that can fold

As if reaching my destination

I play it in my mind as preparation

As it fills me with anticipation

I'm walking to the edge of the cliff

As i let my mind drift

The feeling of my feet off the edge

the feeling of my heart on the ledge

So it's time to decide to be bold

Like you have no feelings to hold

No fake faces to mold

Like a whisper from the cold

So you lift your hands to the sky

And prepare to fly

Like your preparing to die

So you try with all your might

To start the flight

To fight for your life

Yet you can't escape the vice

So you continue to fight

But still all you cant do is fly like a kite

So as your falling

You try to find your calling

Yet the truth is your mind is stalling

Looking in the mirror 

Seeing nothing but fear

Knowing the end is near

Yet all you do is fall

Without finding your call

No more time to stall

Your free yourself from your trance

And begin to dance

Knowing the decision to fall

Is just another memory to haul 

Those times

It's weird when somethings starts from nothing

Or when you don't know where your running

Makes me wonder why we talk to strangers

Even if we know the immediate danger

I wonder why people take the risk

I wonder why people don't love who they kiss

Its amazing how people take the time to care
And depressing how some people just stare

I think sometimes about the emotions one has
And how its change due to the past

Do you ever feel the urge to smile
Just to see if anyone would care awhile

Have you ever seen someone so alive
So great that there was no doubt that they would survive

Have you ever heard some cry in pain
Have you ver danced in the rain

Have you ever touched someone whos skin was cold
Or tell someone somthing in a way that is bold

Have you ever been apart of something great
And it turned to be somthing you hate

Have you ever kissed in the rain
Knowing nobody is to blame
Knowing nobody is the same

Have you ever loved someone so much
And known it just by there touch

©Jason Farrell

Timing is everything

Count to one

And start to run

Count to two

And have no clue

Count to three

And let it be free

Count to four

And see whats in store

Count to five

And try to survive

Count to six

And dont count on an easy fix

Count to seven

And try to see heaven

Count to eight

And get your mind strait

Count to nine

And rehearse your time

Count to ten

Just to see what has been

And do what you can

to tell yourself when

Practice again and again

Or you wont begin

To stay free of sin

Not letting anyone in

Not even a two faced twin

So you get a trim

And fill the bottle to the brim

Knowing your fate is grim

And life could be slim

Yet you try to weave it together with scrim

Although emotions swim

And time will "rebegin"

For sure you will bedim

(Bedim: to darken or dim)

In a world where Timing is everything

And where it means nothing

©Jason Farrell



Whats not to adore

Whats not to adore with those pretty brown eyes

Why not adore the eyes that make you fly

Whats not to adore with your beautiful brown hair

Knowing your not mine just isn't fair

Whats not to adore with the feeling of your hand in mine

Know that everything is going to be fine

Whats not to adore when your feelings come out

Why ignore the feeling to scream and shout

Whats not to adore about the way your an addiction

Wishing you would be in my prediction

Whats not to adore about your many skills

You, really have looks that can kill

Whats not to adore about your special smell

Which always makes me feel so well

Whats not to adore about your one true smile

The kind that can take me miles and miles

Whats not to adore about the way you care

Why not adore the way you stare

Whats not to adore about the way you don't give in

Why not adore when I have a heart to win

Whats not to adore a person like you

Why not adore a person so true

©Jason Farrell

No time

No time like the present

Time for a life is full of florescent

No time to be in love

Time to look for the answers above

No time to change the past

Time to show everyone at last

No time to blame

Time to show no shame

No time to for fun

Time to soak up the sun

No time to tell the truth

Time to show some proof

No time to go places

Time to wake up from the dazes 

No time to dance along the light of day

Time to be okay

No time to look over scars

Time to fall from shooting stars

No time for my life

Time to have tears to wipe

No time to understand

Time to make things planned

No time for a second chance 

Time to start to dance

No time to start a war

Time to start more and more

No time to be free

Time to be me

No time to be kind

Time for feelings to bind

No time to work against

Time to set our defense

Time to make time

Time to say a 3 worded line

A true sensation

The feeling of complete bliss

The feeling of the first kiss

The act of giving the first hug

The arms that rap around to make you snug

The feeling of being close 

Just letting your mind coast

The feeling of her skin touching yours

Seems to shake me to the core

The first time we held hands

Knowing then I could barley stand

The sensation of looking in your eyes

Lifting me up to the sky

Every time I mess with your hair

Your beautiful eyes just stare

The way you show you care

You make everything seem fair

Like the first time we cuddled

Our emotions were huddled

Closing our eyes slowly

Knowing are feelings truly

Nearly falling asleep on the bed

Knowing your time to leave is ahead

And even though we have never gone on a date

We feel as if we are fate

Because there is no hidden hate

When we are away from each other

Thoughts of you I can not cover

I truly wish I held your heart

The real question is: When will I start

up's and down's

As if starting from level one

Your life with her has just begun

We laugh we talk

My life with you begins in a walk

Your going to level two

And you learn everything from her hats to her shoes

You buy her things and she thanks you with a smile

Those little things take you miles

Your going into level three

You are almost letting your emotions free

You ask her out with much glee

Her mouth forms into a yes you see

Like in level four

You want to know whats in store

You tell her you love her

And your emotions begin to stir

Onto Level five

Everything is beginning to strive

You think that your outlook on life
Is now complete to survive

But now theres level six
And fights take there hits

You grow apart
And you don't want that to start

So you go to level seven
Wondering what happen to your heaven

What happen to those good times
Seemingly ending here sentences with a rhyme

Pushing on to level eight
You think its something just like hate

But its not what you thought
Your life is something you want to be caught

Begin level nine
You want everything to be stable, to be fine

Yet you know it wont be the same
And you don't know who to blame
For your shame

Final level
You feel like your life is controlled by the devil

Yet though it all you try to hold on
Even if its wrong
You have to be strong

Cause real life isn't a game

No redo's

No do overs

Just a simple game over

Falling

Driving down this lonesome misty road

Where im-going god only knows

Driving into a shroud of rain

As if falling from my face full of pain

On this lonesome misty ride

Leaving the past behind

Thought I could meet an angel from above

Thought I could fall in love

So as I drive down this broken road

I’m under the pressure that can fold

As if reaching me destination

I play it in my mind as preparation

As if it fills me with anticipation

I can see it in my mind

As if in real time

I'm walking to the edge of the cliff

As I let my mind drift

The felling of my feet off the ledge

Knowing my hearts on the edge

So its time to be bold

Like you have no feelings to hold

No fake faces to mold

Like a whisper in the cold

So you stand up and lift your hands to the sky

And thought for a moment you could fly

Yet knowing your preparing to die

So you try with all your might

To start the needed flight

To fight for your life

Even though you cant escape the vise

But you continue to fight

Cause you think that’s whets right

Yet as you’re falling

You try to find your calling

But your mind is stalling

Like looking in a mirror

You see nothing but fear

Knowing the end is near

Yet you decided to fall

Without finding your call

Theres no more time to stall

Now as you free from your trace

You begin to dance

Knowing your decision to fall

Is just another memory you haul?

Poetry is...

Poetry is a way to feel

Or a way to deal

Poetry isn't just wrote with the hand

Its wrote with the mind that expands

Poetry isn't just  a style

But its something that's worthwhile

Poetry is wrote with emotion

Wrote from provocation

Poetry is a way to see

A way to be

Its a way to be me

To set me free

Poetry is a way to say sorry

Or tell somone you worry

Poerty can tell someone I love you

Just so they can say love you too

Poerty can exspress hate

Or can start a debate

Poetry can be used to describe

Or make someones feelings divid

Poerty is wrote with passion

Or when your crashin'

Poerty can exspress so many things

from the way you are to the things you think

Poerty can exspress so many ideas

Or even make anything clear

It Started

Started out great

Like it were fate

But soon would turn

Into hate

Started out fine

Like a good time

Till I couldn't call you mine

Started out good

Like we knew we could

Or we should

Now its only would

started out fun

Like there was everything to outrun

And now were done

Started out with nothing

Like we were above everything

Like we could do anything

Yet still its ending

Started out scared

Like all we could do is stare

Like it wasn't fair

Now no heart is to share

Blog!

We hold our thought in our head

never writing them down instead

People should have to know

That you have words to show

People need to see

That the letters can set you free

Some people need to let it out

Others just need to exspressingly shout

Blogging shows you how to deal

Only by the way you feel

With a poem you can steal a heart

Or have something good start

Putting your words on the Internet

to let anyone intersect

You could make someone smile

Or even laugh for while

As limits are endless

You might be friended

You can describe something beautiful

You can talk about something that's cool
You can show someone love
Or pay tribute to someone above
Blogging shows you that you can be you
Blogging shows you that you can have anything to do